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4.1.09 - 6.32am
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I have been with Kat for 6 years as of today. I think that's pretty doggone awesome. <3
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11.2.08 - 5.06pm
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Still working my old crappy job, and making poor decisions about life. I joined NaNoWriMo and will probably end up stabbing myself in the brain for it. My work drains most of my energy, and I barely have enough time for my girlfriend, much less any of my other friends. I don't do well with stress, but I have to go and add to it, don't I? Pfft. I hate that I don't have time to talk to the friends who matter to me. And I don't even have the excuse that I'm at least making money.
My mom's final chemo treatment was last Thursday. Thanksgiving week, she'll have her surgery, and then they'll look into whether or not she'll have to have radiation as well.
My father lost his job on Wednesday at the company he's been working at for as long as I can remember. Due to personal grudges of bosses over him. I am not happy about that. It may give me the opportunity to go into business with him in minority advertising for the area. It sounds promising, which means it probably won't work out for me. Hehh.
Bah. Fuck it. I just want to move to Spain and raise goats for the rest of my life.
Becca is not in a good mood.
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8.13.08 - 9.22am
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Cole Hauser's sexy voice. <333333 |
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Goddammit, I'm a nerd.
HALP HATCH MAH BAYBEE DRAGONZ PLZ. <3 oh, god, i have no friends... ._.;
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7.30.08 - 1.58pm
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the stranglers - golden brown |
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Hmmm... to hell with all that depressing stuff. I'm gonna bump it off the top of my journal for now. Maybe delete it later. Not that I'm not grateful for everyone's comments (because I am), but that I need to stop dwelling. I took this from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) street_howitzerand I've been involved in at least as many fandoms as she, so go nuts with it, if you're curious.
Comment with one fandom and I'll tell you my:
One True Pairing Ship:
Canon Ship:
"If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship:
"You are one sick bastard" Ship:
"I dabble a little" Ship:
"It's like a car crash" Ship:
"Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship:
"Makes no canon sense but why the Hell not" Ship:
"Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship:
"When all is said and done" Ship:
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6.24.08 - 2.12pm
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Sometimes, I don't post for long periods of time just because I think that I have nothing to complain about.
How sad is that?
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| Lookin' up a bit. |
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6.10.08 - 12.18pm
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P!nk - God is a DJ |
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Updates.
In case this is TL;DR for ya, you can cut it down to that I'm doing pretty damn good.
Okay, so things are a bit better. Got good news on my mom. She's going in for surgery in two weeks. They think its no further than stage 2 cancer, which means that she probably won't even need radiation, but perhaps chemo. We'll see. I'm less scared about that now. She's a badass woman. She'll make it.
Last Wednesday was the last day of classes. I had work on Thursday, cleaning up and moving stuff. Wasn't too bad. I cried when the kids got on the bus. I'll, most likely, never see them again. I will miss them. I do wish they'd pay me more; I'd keep the job. In any case, they gave me a sparkling review, and couldn't say enough nice things about me. Sometimes, I wonder if that would have been different if they knew I was a lesbian, but I digress.
I have a bunch of teaching-type jobs all summer. Mostly, tutoring, teaching art and Spanish classes, as well as some courses in Photoshop. My brother asked me to design a new logo for the company he works for, and a few professionals have offered me help on revamping my art portfolio.
I mean to do a lot of drawing this summer, but... my computer died on me. Huge fuckoff virus, apparently, that tanked my operating system from the ground up. (Goddammit, I need to be more careful with the porn I download.) Kat's still works perfectly, which is nice, but it can't handle the scanner or the tablet or even Adobe, really. I'm trying to figure out how to save my old hard drives, and I got a new baby, so it should be all right.
Kat and I still talking about a move, but that's up in the air now. With my mom's cancer scare and my instability in work, its hard to plot out where and how we'd move. We're getting a new roommate at the end of the summer. That promises to go well.
On that note, I had an interview today for a Montessori school as an assistant teacher. It went over very well. It seemed like they wanted to hire me, because they kept asking when I could start and discussing which teacher to place me with. The pay's better, the kids are cute, and the place looks awesome.
So, in summation, as Ms. Moore says, if God is a DJ, life is a dance floor. You get what you're given. Its all how you use it.
( .... and, a quiz. Shuddup. )
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| 2008 could hardly get any worse. |
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5.22.08 - 7.05am
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Yesterday evening, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer.... It still hasn't sunk in for me yet.
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| A little less conversation... |
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3.14.08 - 5.12pm
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A little more action, please. |
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So, to update what the fuck my last journal was about, I found out that my work sucks balls. The promised me 16 to 18 dollars an hour, and are paying me 6. This is a job where I've dealt with massive mental stress, being bitten, kicked in the crotch, peed on, and made to bleed by small children. Hooray. Anyway, I'm over it and formulating a plan to not work there anymore.... Whether that starts in April or in June is the only question anymore.
I got into a minor car accident early Tuesday morning, due to the fog. I was at fault. I am overjoyed, as you can tell.
Meanwhile, I'm taking my mind off that depressing reality, I'm going to Vegas in less than 12 hours. Kat and I planned it before we found out my job was screwing us over and plunked down the whole of our tax returns on it.... we're going to gamble a bit at the nickel slots, stay in a five star hotel, see Zumanity (a Cirque du Soleil show), order room service, watch movies and generally relax. Photos upon my return on Thursday.
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| I like being a girl |
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1.15.08 - 9.01pm
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I like being a girl a lot.
But sometimes?
Just sometimes?
I wish I was a boy.
And those times are called... "B.D. Wong".
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| Calling back to my roots. |
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1.6.08 - 1.02pm
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DRAGON DRAGON ROCK THE DRAGON |
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HOLY SHIT FUCK WHAT!?!?!???!!???!?!?!?!
JAMES MARSTERS AS PICCOLO!? I SHAT MYSELF. FILMING?!?!?!?!?!
I... I have no words, good or bad... Yet. *is ded*
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| I Has a Kitten. |
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12.17.07 - 7.21am
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I found you sleeping next to me I thought I was alone |
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Also, the worst sense of self-preservation EVER. X_x
His name is Glitch (shut up shut up shut up shut up) and is perhaps the smallest, cutest, marmalade-iest, most pathetic thing on the face of the planet. He was rescued from behind my workplace, from a batch of 5/6 week old kittens, two of which had bad eye and upper respiratory infections. Those two are doing a lot better, though suffice it to say, their other two siblings aren't letting us close anytime soon.
I have to keep him for about two weeks total, as he's currently on a regiment of twice-a-day medication to clear up his infections and problems, but I'm not seeing it as an issue. Now that he's not terrified of me, at least, and is more than happy to curl up on my lap and purr his insane little heart out.
And, surprisingly, I do not want to keep him. I'm serious. I think my brain found the trump card over my heart: severe rationality. I couldn't afford to keep him, for one, and I know this. It wouldn't be fair to him, seeing as I have three other cats (whom I adore and am NOT giving up anytime soon just because some tiny new face comes along) and it wouldn't be fair to them either.
... so... if you're in the Dallas area.... want a new kitten? ^^;
( Photos of the Kitteh>
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| I'm Putting a Moratorium Down. |
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12.11.07 - 9.32am
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like all at once I wake up |
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I had an argument with one of my students a short while back. A nine year old who said something really nasty to another student and prefaced it with, "No offense, but..."
When the other girl started to get upset, she argued that she had said "no offense" and so everything was okay. So, I got to my knees, put my hands on her shoulders and asked her if she knew what she said would hurt her. When she replied in the affirmative, I told her that grown-ups had to learn how to keep things like that to themselves, and the next time she was going to say something that was neither constructive or kind, to say nothing at all.
And so, I say to you adults, no longer will you be allowed to use the phrase "No Offense".
Seriously. Stop it. It does not excuse you from saying offensive things. It means you can recognize that what you are going to say is going to be offensive, and you have not learned the art of being a grown-up and keeping your mouth shut when you know something is going to hurt the person you are talking to. Why say it then? Why not be constructive?
Just so everyone knows, I'm not taking this out on any one in particular. I just hate that phrase being thrown around, and it feels like lately, my friends have been that last straw. Its immature and an irresponsible use of the language.
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| This isn't sugar on ginger candy... |
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12.10.07 - 10.02am
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what if we'd never met? what if we'd never called? |
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... it's crack. At least, with the rate I go through a box of the stuff, it should be. Kee-ryst.
Okay, so I promised a review of Tin Man, and here it is:
GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH GLITCH.
CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN CAIN.
THEY ARE GAY FOR EACH OTHER AND YOU CANNOT STOP ME FROM THINKING SUCH AND IF YOU LIKE CAIN/DG, I AM JUST A TINY BIT SCARED OF YOU AND YOUR FANDOM, SORRY ITS TRUE, AND I AM NOT GONNA LIE HERE.
BIG, FAT, SLOPPY, SEXY, DROOLY, ADORING, LEG HUMPING, BLABBERING-LIKE-AN-IDIOT CRUSH ON AZKA-D.
OMG SPECIAL EFFECTS LIEK WOAH THAT BEATS OUT ANYTHING SCIFI'S EVER PUT OUT BEFORE EVEN WHEN ADDED ALL TOGETHER.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
ALL CAPS. <3
Seriously, guys, I am fangirling all over the place on this series. To the point where I'm currently making a music video to Regina Spektor's "Fidelty" about the Glitch and Cain pairing. I'm a 'tard. And I don't care.
-- EDIT --
i has a subscription to contactvip.com ... ¬.¬;;;;
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| I'm Saving the Fangirling for Later. |
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12.3.07 - 11.04pm
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Because I will hump the leg of Tin Man fandom fucking shamelessly. But only once its completely done with... For now ? A meme.
THE RULES:
[1] Pick 12 of your favorite movies.
[2] Then pick one of your favorite quotes from each movie.
[3] Post the quotes in your journal.
[4] Have those on your friends list guess what the movie is.
[5] Extra points for knowing the actor and character's name.
[6] Strike out the quote once it has been correctly identified.
"You wear too much eye makeup. My sister wears too much. People think she's a whore."
From Ferris Bueller's Day Off by street_howitzer (who didn't get the character >.>)
"I don't know why, but every now and again in my life - for no reason at all - I need you. All of you."
Sarah, from Labyrinth by athenemiranda and miskatonika
"I had two heart attacks, an abortion, did crack... while I was pregnant. Other than that, I'm fine."
"There's ALWAYS time for lubricant!"
"Wow, I feel sore. I mean physically, not like a guy who's angry in a movie in the 1950's."
Harry Lockhart from Kiss Kiss Bang Bang by street_howitzer
"I dunno. That's that whole nature versus nurture question, isn't it? Was I born a cute, vindictive, little bitch or... did society make me that way? I go back and forth on that... "
"I know they were just kids, but we kicked their pube-less asses!"
Jay from Dogma by street_howitzer
"Help! Help me!"
"But you're supposed to die!"
"I want to live!"
"...All right."
"WHY ARE YOU DIGGING?"
"This comet came crashing into the earth. BAM! Total devastation. No celebrities, no cable TV, *no water*! It hasn't rained in 11 years. Now, 20 people gotta squeeze into the same bathtub. So it ain't all bad."
Tank Girl from Tank Girl by rehd_fawx
"Hey! Dum-dum!"
Moa from Night at the Museum by hime_no_nishi
"How many times a day I gotta threaten your life...?"
Tony from FernGully by rehd_fawx
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| TIN MAN OMG |
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12.3.07 - 12.08am
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You make me feel like the amazon's running between my thighs |
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SRSLY, Y'ALL. SRSLY.
-- EDIT --
Oh, yeah. I got the teacher's aide job. I think I might be in over my head, but we'll see... It's for a Head Start program (meaning they are 3 or 4 years old), and the class I'll be assisting with is Special Education and bilingual.
I'll get summers off, but I'll probably be using those to go back to college for a degree in education.
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| Mmrglphgh. |
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11.23.07 - 8.53pm
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he visto y he tocado; y era tocada: movida... |
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[mood|  nervous]
So hay, my appointment for the job interview got canceled. No fear, its been rescheduled to this upcoming Tuesday. I think I have a chance. And, if not, I now have a contact at the same ISD, so things are looking up either way. <3
ANYWHO, my main point for this journal was going to be begging for a roommate. Kat and I nixed the whole moving thing. We just weren't ready for it. And it wasn't as though we couldn't pay the bills. (We still have internet, after all, as should be painfully obvious.) We just can't save. I was gonna ask Catry and Company to make a move on in, if they liked, but I can't seem to find any way to contact her like RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW OH GOD I'M SO IMPATIENT RIGHT NOW. ... and so, in all my nervous energy, I have worked myself into a tizzy. So to speak...
I need to go calm down.
Otherwise, just, yanno, coming down from my trip up to see my old friends and their new baby up in Little Rock. Nothing much too interesting elsewhere in my life.
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| HOLY FUCKING SHIT BITCH |
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11.9.07 - 1.53pm
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I GOT CALLED IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AS A TEACHER'S AID. HOOFUCKINGRAY FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| I fucking hate you, Silent Hill.... |
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11.7.07 - 1.07pm
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I'm everyman. I'm any man. |
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Every GODDAMN time they test the tornado sirens around here, I jump out of my skin. I hate you, Silent Hill. I hate you like church and learning. >.<
mood:  scared
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